Lord I Believe, Help my
Unbelief!
These words from Mark 9 are so often the mantra of my
heart. I know in my head all the verses
about God’s Sovereignty but when the circumstances of your life come to head
with what you know to be true about God, questions easily arise and if I am not
careful, I quickly find myself going down the “Why?” road, or trying to figure
out an explanation or how to change things, and most of all, how to get out of
the unpleasant circumstances I find myself in as quickly as possible. And yet I feel stuck. Wondering what to do…a few hours of the day I
have some motivation and “get some stuff done”, and then quickly go back to
what I have termed “laziness.” Is it
really laziness though? Or escape from
life? And as a friend said, there I go on a rocking horse going back and forth “trying
to figure it out” and not going anywhere, when what I simply need to do is
trust God. Trust Him with my days, trust
Him with my time, and trust Him the way He calls me to. As I was reading in John 14 tonight, I came across
the highlighted verse 15 of Jesus speaking, “If you love me you will obey my
commandments.” Immediate conviction and
even condemnation and thoughts of “I really need to work on this laziness thing
and get out of bed on time and not go the escape route and not worry about the
meds etc et al.” Then I read on and this is what I found: “And I will pray the Father, and He will give you
another Helper, that He may abide with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth, whom
the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you
know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. 18 I will not leave you
orphans; I will come to you.”
So often I tend towards the “pull up the bootstraps” kind of faith
and do what you know you need to do—obey!
And look at what Jesus does—He does call us to obey, but in the same
breath He is praying for us that the Spirit would help us—enable us—to do what
He calls us to. What a precious truth
for my “I believe, help my unbelief!” sinner’s heart. God is so good to give us exactly what we
need when we need it!
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| This picture reminds me of how God used each unique snowflake to make something beautiful--we don't know how God will use our present circumstances for His glory, but we can rest assured He will. Just as He used thousands of individual snowflakes to make this brilliant landscape I awoke to one morning. He has a purpose for every one of us, even when it seems like life is just passing us by. As hard as it is, we can thank Him for the trials as they give us opportunity to bring Him glory in a much deeper way than we ever would be able to if life was simple and painless. |
Created For His Glory, Saved by His Son, Enabled by His Spirit,
Rachelle :)
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